The Killers

And the decades disappear like sinking ships but we persevere
God gives us strength but we still fear what we don't know
The mind is poison

Castles in the sky sit stranded, vandalized
The drawbridge is closing

Ready To Go

So I have google mapped pretty much everything we will need to know. Bought one auto-fish-feeder but still need to find another. Loaded up the lap top with everything we need (except the maps, still need to save those). Now I just have to pack everything else. I wonder what I will forget.

I am afraid to go. Makes me nervous leaving my home and my animals. I don't like it. I guess I'm kind of a worry-wort. I don't like not knowing what is going on at my house. What if Jaxie gets stuck outside and can't get to her food for three days. What if one of the cats gets run over and I don't find him/her for three days. What if the auto-fish-feeder falls over and the fish don't get food. But I'm afraid not to go. My cousin was in and out of consciousness yesterday so this could be it. But that also makes me not want to go. I am eager to get there but I will have a tough time getting in the car to leave. Oh well, we all must do things that are hard. I guess that's just life.

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

Surprise! I'm going on a trip...

...to Morinville Alberta! That's right, I'm leaving the province! Yeah for me! We are going over the long weekend. Three whole days away from my animals, that's a big step for me. I hope they will be okay. It'll be the first time being alone for the fish. Hope they don't hate me! (Yes I know I sound like a crazy person. If you know me then you know it is because I am totally crazy! That's why I live in the middle of nowhere and never go anywhere.)


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My family is gathering there because my cousin is in the hospital there. We are taking our new car. And my sister is coming with us. Should be interesting, Adam, me, and Erin all in a car for 6 1/2 hours. I will definitely take the camera.